It’s a Friday night and I’m sitting on the couch naked watching SVU. Sober.
depression is when you don’t really care about anything
anxiety is when you care too much about everything
and having both is just like whatHaving both is staying in bed because you don’t want to go to school and then panicking because you don’t want to fail. Having both is wanting to go see your friends so you don’t lose them all, then staying home in bed because you don’t want to make the effort. Having both is insanely hard and sucks to deal with.
I wonder what it would be like to go home to her every night. To cook dinner with her after work. To cuddle on the couch with her after we do dishes.
I wonder what it would be like to sit on the bed and watch her get ready for sleep.
I wonder what it would be like to snuggle up with her every night. To kiss her on the nose and tell her she’s everything I could have possible asked for.
I wonder what it would be like to love her.